Friday, January 10, 2003
It rained last night, but we have sun again today.
Kathryn and I watched Vanilla Sky last night (second time for me) and then I was unable to sleep until about 5 am (no connection between the film and my insomnia, so far as I can tell).
Even guilt and shame seem to have their limitations, which, I must say, comes as a considerable disappoint to me. Will I be left with nothing in which to place my faith? Yesterday, I tried to work on "The Rose Garden," but was unable to do so, because I discovered that, while I can write fiction aimed at a younger audience, I can only do so in a very particular mood. So. Instead I reworked the first two thirds of the prologue for Murder of Angels and tried to begin the final third, but came up empty. I do like the writing, I just need to see a lot more of it.
Anyway, I doubt today will be any better. I've promised Kathryn I'd spend the day out, at a museum or a cemetery, perhaps, as I've not left the apartment since last Sunday. I thought moving to a place that is a place, where there are Outside things to occupy my time, would end the reclusiveness. Old habits. Anyway, the hope is that something out there will inspire and motivate me. I think the lack of motivation is the biggest problem.
But tonight is Farscape and nothing will damper my spirits about that. It's one of the few pluses to having been refused the right to fly to San Francisco. At least I can see Farscape tonight. You'll be there too, right? Of course you will. Sci Fi Channel. 8 pm Eastern/Pacific, with a repeat at midnight. Need to know more? Go to Nebari Net.
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